Sorry If I Bore you! Random thoughts!

I'm just gonna share what i've been thinking as of late. Like a real journal entry =P

Just finished my finals! Perhaps the first time i'm sad about that. haha i'll miss the classes during the week. Thus, I have finished my first semester of seminary! I Often forget im in seminary, its surreal. What a joy it was! Yet, what a double edged sword it can be. I feel like i've learned so much, but it was easy for me to go home, especially to my church and be prideful about it. Then, i see my grades and it's like..freakkk what do i have to be prideful about. haha I saw my project grade today, it was a 93! But then i realized thats barely a B+ in talbot scales and its like..ohh.. i thought that project i made was awesome! hahaha how humbling. Yet, what an honor that I the creature can study the creator. (doesn't really make sense, except if God has revealed himself)

I've been really blessed at work as well. Don't ever underestimate the value of simply working hard. I wrote my paper on Phil 2:6-11, its been pounding around ever since. There are times when i'm at work, and im cleaning drains or etc, and i think "man i'm above this," or "This is too dirty for me." Then Phil 2 pops in my head, and it's like "uhh no its not". hahaha Christ truly set a remarkable and radical new paradigm in his life, humility glorified! Service exalted! Being at work reminds me that wherever I am, whether at seminary or wherever, I want to glorify God. I want to know God. Thats for all of us, not just us seminary students. So work hard!

Studying Philippians, i think what frustrated me most is that I can't duplicate Christ. I can do the same actions, by serving, but what amazes and frustrates me about Christ is his heart! That is what makes me feel so inadequate. Christ's true humility deep down is so amazing to me. Yet i know he did miracles, amazing works, etc but what amazes me more is his perfect character. I know this is only a work God can do in me, truly transforming my inner heart character, its frustrating at times, but I gotta be patient =P

To reiterate the goal of this blog, its mainly for me. For me to get my thoughts down, to help me remember things i wanna remember. To help me be better in explaining my thoughts. One thing that frustrates me though about teachers, theologians, pastors etc is that often, "They don't make the cookie jar accessible to others." It's impossible to reach it for many. Basically i'm saying, I want to be better at helping you understand different difficult truths. Helping you reach up and grab the unreachable cookie! What i'm learning isn't just for me, but i hope to use it to encourage and exhort others, not just let it be some abstract theological truths too difficult for me and you to understand. I think a leader needs to be able to do that. I hope I become better at encouraging you, and become a better teacher along the way.

Once again, i stress, Work it from your head to heart! whatever truth your thinking about. No theological thought should go without a practical aim. Biblical doctrine is that which transforms you. So think....

Anyways, it's been a good semester. I'm thankful. Schools good. Works good. Church is good. Good people in my life. But most importantly, The gospel. Oh how amazing it is.