Who forgot the gospel?

Imagine this. A child, who is excited with just the prospect of you opening the door to reveal whats behind it. Then comes a teen, who will only get excited as you actually open the door. Lastly comes the adult, who needs to actually see whats behind the door, to perhaps get excited. As you get older, it takes more and more to get you excited. What excited you as a child, is suddenly not enough.

I'll keep this simple. In the midst of all i've been learning, what i've been forgetting sadly has been the gospel.

Heres a snippet of a journal entry I wrote on 01/10/2006.
"I thank you God for giving me strength. Let your gospel permeate over every part of my life! I thank you for the brokenness I feel, help me to keep on fighting my sins. May I plunge my weakness into your amazing grace. Forgive me Father for all i've done. May all glory Go to you."

Oh 2006 Patrick! How Good you were at focusing on the gospel! That time feels like it was forever ago....How ironic. How sad. How disappointing. How sinful that i've forgotten. Nowadays I need to see whats behind the door to be excited, i need more then the gospel to feel moved. I miss those days where the gospel was enough.

If you're reading this, I implore you, don't forget the gospel. Don't think you've moved on. Don't let yourself focus more on your sins, less on the gospel. Our lives will forever revolve around the gospel. DOn't let yourself get used to the noise the train makes, when it should shake your foundation every single time it goes by.