Tired of Ordinary

"God preserve me from living a life which conforms to the general pattern!"

Been reading through Jim Elliot's biography since I got back from Indonesia. These quotes sum up a sentiment i've been feeling as of late. I feel unsatisfied living an ordinary Christian life, hesitating to be sold-out for Christ for fear of being labeled a fanatic. Shouldn't the life of a disciple of Christ look radically different than others?

I've been thinking about my "fellowship" with other believers. We hang out all the time, but do we invest in the eternal? Do we pray for another? Is there an actual sharing of Christ in some way or form? Surely we're impacting one another, but is it positive? Most likely we're just wasting time. I know its not right, but its fear that keeps me from pushing the cultural bounds. Fear of making others uncomfortable by saying "lets pray together". Fear of confronting others regarding their blindspots, thereby missing an opportunity to help sanctify them. Fear of being labeled "holier than thou".

...but what would "love" do? Probably not whats comfortable, but whats best. No longer do I want to do what will please people, but rather what will serve people. This is what i'll strive for.

"We are so utterly ordinary, so commonplace, while we profess to know a Power the twentieth Century does not reckon with. But we are 'harmless,' and therefore unharmed. We are spiritual pacifists, non-militants, conscientious objectors in this battle-to-the-death with principalities and powers in high places.... We are side-liners, coaching and criticizing the real wrestlers while content to sit by and leave the enemies of God unchallenged. The world cannot hate us, we are too much like its own. Oh that God would make us dangerous!